CHOICE!

I reached a bit of an epiphany last night. I decided, consciously that I was going to cheat. I even told the boy to bring home some wine, as I had every intention of having a glass. He did, and I did. I had two whole glasses. And it was good, but you know? It wasn’t great. But something happened. For the last two weeks I have been feeling deprived and hard done by, like I was really missing out on my wine, my cake, my sandwiches, my cheese. But by taking the choice to cheat, I realised that the choice is mine, it is not inflicted on me by the diet, or by the food, or anything or anyone else. I am choosing to abstain from conventional food, and I am doing it for my own good. It is like a weight lifted off actually. It may have thrown off my ketosis, I don’t know, and will find out next Sunday if it has affected my weight loss. But even if it has, at least I know that I am the one in control. I am not being deprived of anything, I am not even depriving myself, I am consciously abstaining from conventional food in a bid to improve my health.