One week in!

I found Saturday quite hard. Only a week in, and I am already fed up and bored with the food packs. On Sunday, I prepared a meal for my friends from Oz, and opened some wine for them. It smelt delicious. I did tell them about my diet, and they were very supportive, and not remotely judgmental. My friend has had problems with her own weight, but she has always been fit despite it, having been in the army and being a member of a gym. So they didn’t mind me disappearing for a couple of hours and leaving the boy and kids with them to eat their dinner. I weighed in and have lost 7lbs! Quite pleased, although I secretly hoped it would be more. I also discovered LL savoury drinks, which may be my salvation, as the prospect of surviving on veg soup and shakes is scaring me a bit. I want to have lost a stone in three weeks, so fingers crossed. The boy said he notices that my tummy isn’t as swollen, which is nice. He has really been supportive, more than I thought he would be. He actually told me that I should stick to it for the 14 weeks last night when I was moaning a bit and muttering about coming off it, which was a great relief. He is behind me! That said, he can unwittingly tempt me. He brandished a glass of burgundy under my nose last night and begged me to taste it “Surely you can taste a little bit? Stick your finger in!” He wasn’t deliberately teasing me, but I don’t think he fully gets that it is an “abstinence” diet. I have to laugh when he comes in “Starving” at 6.30, having not had anything since 2pm. I’m bad at grazing, but blimey, he takes the biscuit, pun not withstanding.

I am worried about this week. My interest is seriously waning. The novelty has totally worn off. I KNOW I need to crack the psychology of this if it is to have any effect, but I am just so bored with the food/lack of food. And it seems to preoccupy me constantly. I have found that silly gossip mags are actually a good way to distract, because unlike books, which I never have time to read, they are something I can pick up and put down when one of the children screech for attention, or if I have to jump up and do something. So, much to my shame, I have taken to buying magazines. If I had my internet access it wouldn’t be so bad, but the bloody thing has been down for over two weeks now.